Day 1

I am unemployed.   It is by choice and not a result of this recession or economic downturn or whatever we are in right now.    I haven't been unemployed since I went away to school in the fall of 1994.   This feels much different than that.   Today felt kind of like I was playing hooky again.   Since I'm not that far removed from maternity leave and I took a week of vacation at the beginning of the month, it didn't feel very foreign to me.    What feels uncomfortable about this is not knowing the timeline.    When I started maternity leave I knew that I was going back to work in 12 weeks.    When I was unemployed when I started college I knew that even if I didn't get a job during the school year I would have one once classes were out for the summer.   But right now my job is to take care of my family - to be a mom and a wife, or maybe to be a wife and a mom. 

And so Day 1 was uneventful and there was no ceremony to it.   I made a menu for the week's meals and a grocery list.   I walked the dog.  I paid bills.   I went grocery shopping.   I went to the bank.   I made dinner.   And in the meantime I changed a few diapers, and fed Foster a few times.   We took Caleb to tennis, we all had dinner, Caleb did his homework and now the boys are all headed to bed.   And I am content.

Tomorrow I hope to begin some cookie posts and cookie pictures!